Love me,Hate me. but please,don't hurt me.

I party like a rockstar 
Look like a movie star 
Play like an all star 
**** like a ****star ! XD 

-Currently addicted to Pitbul songs-

Oh pleaseeeee, I'm dying to get back all my dancing-spirit !

So,Hei there.Its been pretty long enough since I last wrote something here.
Anyways, exam is on this wednesday,today is monday,and i just came back from SINGAPORE YESTERDAY!
I went there to celebrate deepavali with my beloved friend and her family,Sable Shobha Thomas.
I had loads of fun,and we went shopping like crazy.everywhere in singapore is so safe and peaceful so nothing stopped both of us to walk on the street alone even if its night.
-but i'm still worry about him whereever i go,in whatever i do-

People there reallyyy celebrates deepavali.unlike malaysia.
we went visiting houses to houses and collected loads of cash in singapore dollar $$$$. haha
people there minimum gives 10$.they arent so kiam siap.so please. haha
uhuh- collected quite a load,so what would it be like if i change it to malaysia ringgit.lol !
i'm so very happy and i guess that's quite a holiday for me in singapore.
I love you singapore!
-but i'm still worry about him whereever i go,in whatever i do-

Deepavali is over.Am back now in Malaysia.Exam is this wednesday.Please focus Liau Sue Li!
-but i'm still worry about him whereever i go,in whatever i do-


I got back. I woke up. I read my friend's mail. I told her about -so and so-
we always mail each other everyday.everyday.and i replied.this is how it goes.

Dear ---------,

Got back just yesterday night. As soon as i read your mail just now,i straight took my phone and give mark a call.but as usual,he didn't answer.instead he send me back a message saying "sorry,i cant pick up your call now.pls drop me a message".so obvious he hates me already.i didn't reply him in the phone, as he was online. so i said. "hie" on msn. waited for him to reply. i tot he never gonna do so. but then.....

---- says:
hey
| me | says:
how are you?
----says:
i just discharge yesterday
now resting at home
| me | says:
oh.
em, good. glad to know that.
---- says:
yeah
thx
| me | says:
were u about to say something?
why typed and erase?
---- says:
no
no i never
| me | says:
...
---- says:
yeah
| me | says:
?
look, i don't know whats wrong.
if there was some misunderstanding in the pass i'd like to take it all on me,and i apologise.
a'ight.
i can't stand the coldness i'm feeling in this convo.


And yea,its hanging. dammit. after so bloody many days and nights in singapore of worriessss. urgh!. but yea, i'm now relief laa. at leasttt he's at home. and safe. and and. fine.
P.s : i'm still worried about him.i'm still wondering why he's acting so cold and all but i can't blame cuz he's sick.
i'm confused.i don't know what he wants.to stay this way. or to clear things off. how laa....


Miss back in malaysia.
- i'm still worry about him whereever i go,in whatever i do-


He became such a distraction in my Medulla Oblongata since the first day i talked to him.
Maybe i shouldn't start everything at the first place.
So things wouldn't be hanging half way like this.
No i'm not angry.I just hate me for certain things i do.
I thought he could handle things pretty well,but now that it hit,the truth reveals by itself!..
Is avoiding the best solution you can find?
are u even avoiding at the first place?
Sorry i brought trouble to your life.
Maybe sorry wouldn't even help!
I'm the person who said the word -SORRY- to you more often than anyone else did.
Guess i'm not sorry enough then.
I thought you told me once that you are a very 'straight guy' and that you'll just tell it if u don't like it this way or that way.
I'm still waiting for you to tell me whats wrong and sweep me off if you want.
all i'm asking is for the truth.
so please prove to me that you are 'straight'.
I'm hurt. I'm hurt how i dare to took you as a friend.
and now,my very friend is avoiding me.
- i'm still worry about him whereever i go,in whatever i do-

Our conversation never felt so cold before,
We use to talk even on the personal message before,
We use to laugh and joke like friends before,
But i guess we're not doing that anymore.




P.s : still am.very.very.worry.

aiyooh. what's the diff ?!......

Dilemma.

Anyways,not here to talk bout this.

Random post jer.bukannya ape pun.

emm..

I like Mei Earn's post/recording.

IF YA'LL WANNA WATCH :D heee please go to www.meirox.blogspot.com

Teeeheeeeeee! =D

please okay ! she wrote those songs herself.its a christian song btw.
quick quick quick ! go watch ! wutdya waitin' fer.got pretty gal to see summore. watch it ! don't miss it ! :D

Tsk !

I WANT IPOD.

I LOVE MY JOB:)

Teh Mei Er left to U.K.-.-

I miss dancing.

I love singing in the toilet its the best place to sing.try it.

I don't care & give no shit to anything/anyone in school anymore 'cuz i found life,i found joy,i have a life at a particular place.

I woke up wanting to listen to simple plan-crazy.

I thank the lord,my God,for every minute.

gotta go and prepare songs.

bye.
-latest on FB-

back.

Its been long enough since I last blogged.

I don't have that urge to blog everyday.
I shall just go with the flow :)

Well.. I've got limited stories for the readers..
Guess all i have is pictures.. to describe everything.. :)

this is Su-ann and me... Its actually my sister's best friend.. she's 24 already.
She' s an airstewardess,under Qatar Airways,always living at Abudabi.
Only comes back once in a while.And when she's back,we'll never let go of her.
Lol. She's like my soul sister.Almost similar interest.
But of korz, cigerattes and coffee aren't my cravings and 'life-partner'.
The reason why the 5430 is because.. we share the same IC Number,but of korz different year.
Its about like 19**-**-5430.Yeah.. Its about that :) haha.
My sister calls her Su. and calls me Sue...
But anyways, it sounds the same..just the tone part.lol.
She's 5'8 tall..She use to be a model..
She's special and her full name is Yeoh Su-Ann.


Next,



Lava-lava-lavanya.
It was Lavanya's sweet 16,
So as Dickson's.
They celebrated together...
Both their names was on the cake,we celebrated at Lavanya's 'heavenly-gorgeous' house :)
But the funnay thing is.. her name was spelled wrongly on the cake and dickson's one was perfectly fine.. hahahah!. It was spelled as Lavayana instead of Lavanya.hahaha.
I wonder what makes the Cake Lady thinks she missed out an A between the N-Y.
LOL.
Anyways,it doesn't matter... As long as we're singing the birthday song and celebrating it with the real person =D heee..
After singing song,our tradition was usually feeding cakes to our close ones around..
When Lavanya and Dickson fed each other, we ALL.... went like "awwww" then *LAUGHS*
All of us had soo much of fun.especially when all the girls gather together again,and we feel like home :) i guess that's what we suppose to feel like with our 'friends-for-life'...
Is where we can do anything and everything at all without anyone complaining..but yeah,of korz,there will be saying like "OMG,WTH ARE U DOINGG!PUT ON YOUR CLOTHS !!!",stop hitting my boobs-.-","stop unbuckling my bra buckle" ahahhahahahahahhahaha. or.. "shith! did u just farted???!" ,"cynthia!stop burpping at people's ears,its annoying!" haha...
or maybe like.. "damn! this is good! celebrating someone's birthday with big T-shirts and shorts on feeling all home and comfortable" ... ahhahhhahah.
hahahhahaha.Well. well.
The best part was, Lavanya cooked almost all the food,she made lasagna,mini pizza,spagetti,VERY AWESOME BROWNIES,strawberry yogurt,caramel and other desserts..
and YET it was her birthday..... its awesome anyways... :) something new,something we girls had never done before except lavanya,... birthday girl cooking.haha.
and Sable.. OMG. All of a sudden she can eat like a PIG ! Damn!! But its good... :)
its been so long since i last saw her whacking food in a public without giving a damn...
here's a picture of her... haha!*sorray sablehhhh*
Sue:Caught! Guilty !! Punishment :eat all the food.
Sable : Oooohhh..Okay ..... *without hesitating* ahahah!
That! is my Real Pig ! Lol.
Well,that's not all though...They have more on the otherside of the picture with the deserts..this was the main course :)
Credit goes to Lavanya ! :D
Then later on we did some dancing.. with some music on..*loud* .. MJ's Song ! AHHAHA. then kiren start to imitate the singer and show actions.. then we danced the Thriller! ahahhah.
One Word , AWESOME !!
There were more pictures.. but this are just a scratch on the surface :)

Next,
Yeaaasss!! I love Yuna.Yunalis..
She's now my official favourite singer from now on..
I wanna get her album ! ergh...
Her voice... Makes me melt !..
I could breath again just by listening to her songs...
She's prettay unique..
Wonder how does a tudung malay girl can have such beautiful voice,talent and idea of such beautiful lyrics that she wrote...
I LOVE Yuna i love yuna..
Her songs are :
Dan sebenarnya,
Backpacking around europe,
Missing star,
Deeper conversation,
Greek Goddess.. and many many many moreee!!!.....

Next,
I don't remember myself bloggin' about Manda's sweet16th...
I was just thinking 'bout it that day and i was too free perhaps so i collaged all the pictures i had..
Lol..and there,pictures of it... with few funny faces..
Amanda,no matter how annoying you are. ahhahaha,i'll still treasure you as my friend,cuz i know you are one of the ones who will keep in touch even after high school... :)
Remember you are the choosen one,God has placed you in my life for a reason...
I love you panda! haha.

Friends,can't live with them,can't live without them :)
-sue-

hey hey hey. updates for camp no.2 haha!

give me serious!

give me cheessee =D

point point point!

gimme BANANAS UNITE !haha

give me JUMPERRR!

jump shot people .jump!

pweaaazzzeee???let us go??? hahaha

stairsss.

act like we're jumping.ahahhaha

tell me what you want,what you really really want? =D

muscle man/woman.

LOVY DOVY LOVY DOVY,KISS KISS KISS KISS!!..........

yeh!

Yes.Camp #2.
The previous Camp #1 i blogged about was right down there.scroll it :)
LOL.
camp after camps.not only that.you'll have another post coming up soon. ahaha.

This camp is just a trip lah.small,tiring but fun.love the treasurehunt.
Things weren't thaaatt organized,but well.it turned out great.
awesome.
so there.a little peek and pics.
where all this bananass unite together.
X'treme Youth Zeal(XYZ) by the Eagles church.
beautiful =)

Hey there :)

Hello hello everybozy. Its been a while since i last blog. Hectic.is the answer to the question"How are you doing?" 2weeks of studying.2weeks of exam.before May...Jan,Feb,March,April..wasn't really a good month. .Honestly. .haha. So,yea,exam ended on Friday,29th may 2009,12.30pm.gawd,i could really felt that 'breath the fresh air again and live like there's no tomorrow,come back to the world" kinda feeling.even one day before exam ended,i felt myself so so so so very very close to touch 'freedom' point.ah!that was how desperate i was lah.so as others too. And..on Saturday morning itself i went to Port Dickson,for a youth camp-conference kinda thing.okay whatever lah.ya,so i went.knowing i'll have tons and tons of fun there meeting new people and mingle around again,meeting last year's friends again.oh no, i'm starting to miss them so much already ;) they are really special people,for real. uhuh,so,3 days 2 nights at there.awesome beach.awesome worship sessions and sketch,drama,fun night was really FUN.and finally we had to leave... Darren said:'oh no! see,this is something about camp!it has to come to an end.we might as well DONT' KNOW each other and purposely don't introduce ourselves to each other so we won't be missing people here so much and have 'camp sick' !Lol. Well, couldn't really deny the fact rite. I MISS ALL OF THEM SO VERY MUCH LAHH! Miss those 'jamming sessions'.I tell you,they're really ONE AWESOME BAND.! this guy he's only 14/15.he's drumming like as if he's been drumming for 10-20 years! He's very naughty also,like a little boy,but still awesome. And we've got REALLY GREAT bass,and electric guitar player....WOW. and i found out that they won somekinda competition for this 'band' thing.. hmmmm.hmmm. AWESOME SHIT.


amanda tan ying ying aka Dumdumnique.and me.as usual.girls...:)


amanda,me,middle-tingtings(his nickname) right-ophnew,back,left-darren.this 3guys are the band people.they rock.funny.nice.awesome.


anyways, it all has to come to an end.so we went home,adding each other on msn and facebook already sending all the pictures to each other... lol. Went home,bath,too tired,slept for a while. and then woke up and realise it was amanda's sweet 16th birthday tonight.quickly get dressed up.and go. came back 11 something -12.then slept till 11.30am.ah..! i feel so Re-Charged. today,2 June.is elder brother's birthday.had lunch with family except sister. then tonight going one utama to eat dinner with family and sister & her boyfriend.lol. family.hmm.....=) I don't know mann... I want to fill up all my holidays being busy yet fun at the same time. Wanna hang out with people.wanna laugh crazy loud. Don't wanna cry everyday no more...gimme a break man. ahah. Happy thing again.Having another church camp of mine at bentong this friday.ahaha. camps camps camps. God surely has great plan for me.This is all His plan for me after 2 weeks of exam. HE is truely and awesome God. Praise be to him. A'ight.that's about it.nothing much.life rocks at this moment. don't wanna know the future yet. See you pepz!

p.s-u're the one thing that still remains during this ever changing day.